You ever have a night where you’re really, truly exhausted, but you have thoughts going through your head a mile a minute, and the’re all “what if?” thoughts? I haven’t had a night like that since I was pregnant, and I was last pregnant in fall of 2006. At least, that’s the last time I was pregnant with a human baby.
Yesterday, just before dinner, I had a really fantastic response from a testknitter of my Grand Mal Moebius. So good that my face hurts from smiling. A knitting pattern, it’s a different kind of baby, one in which the pride and joy is not adversely affected by sleep deprivation, dirty diapers, or colic. To have a germ of an idea, to conceptualize it, to write it out, to think “yes, I think this will work, this will be good,” is one thing. To find out for sure that someone out there knows for sure that it *is* good, it’s a big, wonderful feeling. For me, this early in my role of “designer,” it knocked me for a loop.
Last night, I was pregnant with ideas. I still am pregnant with ideas, in fact. All yesterday afternoon I worked out a pattern for a cowl. It was all mental gymnastics (this is yet another Ravelympics 2008 project, so I won’t get testing until tomorrow), I visualized and imagined and really got the creative juices flowing. It was very tiring, and I was quite happy when my head hit the pillow. Only to discover I had another idea, that needed to be committed to paper. Which I did, until around midnight. Then I tried to turn things around and actually rest. It didn’t work out, instead I was visualizing yarns and colors and schematics. It took forever to actually sleep, but I did, eventually, make it.
Only to wake up 4 short hours later.